I have hair in my nose

And my head, eyebrows, eyelids, and beard. It's starting to grow back. It's a slow process. Maybe I put eshi ugh ("donkey oil" for my non Armenian friends) on it.

Rotten deal

Maybe it's the pessimist in me but I can't help feel like I got a real shitty deal with life. I worked my ass off to get in shape. Worked my ass off to get into USC and find a new job. Aull for nothing. In a blink of an eye I go from knowing all the answers to life to not knowing what my tomorrow brings. I had it all figured out. By August I would have had almost a year worth of experience at Universal. El and I would have our own place and I'd be prepared to get married and start school. Now there's no guarantee I will be healthy enough to attend USC. No guarantee I'll have my job when I go back to work. My wedding is postponed another year. What more can go fucking wrong? I've lost everything to a fucking disease. Thanks a bunch.

What now

Well today my doc told me I may go into surgery in a month. A month? Yeah a month. Un mes? Si, un mes. Inside joke. So yeah surgery in a month. Then it's somewhat up to me how fast I recover. Lots of unknowns. A bit scared.

Latest developments

I have a blood cloth. Now I have to stick myself with this every day for the next 6 months. Can I please get a break. If it's not one thing wrong it's another. My life needs a reset button. I must have made a wrong turn somewhere.

What a good day

How nice it is not to be in the hospital. I feel great considering I have to be careful not to cut myself. Doctors say I may bleed out. But who cares. It's warm outside and my car speakers have arrived. I can finally do something on my new Jeep on my own. First we install speakers then we test the effects of the wind on my bald head as I drive with the top down.

I'm out

I just got released from the hospital. I'm breathing fresh air again. I'm free.

Yummy

Nothing beats a shot of Deladid for breakfast.

Never fails

Just when everything is going well and the end is near I have to get a 101 fever. Now I'm going to get admitted to the hospital again. I hope it's a short stay. I have a very important birthday to attend.

Day after

The days after chemo are harsh. I can't seem to get it together today. My entire body hurts.