Saturday, September 29, 2012

Aren's Wake and Funeral Services

To live in hearts we leave behind is not to die. (Clyde Campbell) 

Aren Vartanian
Nov 13, 1978 to Sept 27, 2012

Wake:
Wednesday, 10/03/2012 5:00-9:00pm
Forest Lawn - Hollywood Hills
Mortuary Information Building
6300 Forest Lawn Drive
Los Angeles, 90068

Funeral Service:
Thursday, 10/04/2012, noon
Forest Lawn - Hollywood Hills
Old North Church (Red)
6300 Forest Lawn Drive
Los Angeles, 90068

Saturday, September 22, 2012

Back in the hospital

As I'd Wednesday I've been admitted to the hospital again. At first I wasn't feeling good but as the examined me more they claim my situation is more dangerous than anticipated. So now I'm stuck here till probably Tuesday. How exciting.

Wednesday, September 5, 2012

Inspiration

I brought my road bike home with me. I'm not in any shape to ride it yet but it's become an inspirational tool for me. I can't wait till my pain goes away and I can at least take it for a spin down the street.

Wednesday, August 29, 2012

Today

Today I woke up and it felt like any other day. Then my fiancé walks into my apartment and it's as if my whole world changes. Now I've got a smile on my face for the rest of the day as I go through Dr appointments and school.

Wednesday, August 22, 2012

busy busy busy

I've been a busy boy lately. For someone that doesn't work I've got a full schedule. Most of the time I'm doing something for school. It's really taking up a lot of my time. I don't get a chance to see my OC friends. Other than that I'm surviving. I've got some pain, mainly from surgery. I hope it goes away quick because it's interfering with school and many other daily activities.

Tuesday, August 14, 2012

When life hands you shit you go on vacation

El and I haven't been able to take a vacation since I proposed to her over a year ago. We've both hit the max on the stress meter. So now we're in Palm Desert for a couple of days. I won't enjoy it as much since I have homework to do. Also this leg and back pain I've developed after surgery is kicking my butt. Took 3 Vicodin pills so hopefully it keeps the pain away. Ok enough with this blog. I'm getting in the pool. It's hot out here.

Tuesday, August 7, 2012

First weekend of MBA

This last weekend I spent all of Friday, Saturday, and Sunday in class. Very exhausting. I had fun though. It's tough getting in the mode of school and homework but I think I'll be fine. I did goof up pretty good though. So the LA campus is split in two, group A & B. Then depending on which group we're in we pick our individual group from that pool of students. That group stays with you for the first year so its important to pick a good group. Well when it came time for the class to pick our group I screwed up and went to the wrong class with group A instead of going with B. So I missed everything. So the people running the show had to switch my group to A so not only do I get the benefit of the class I missed but I also get a chance to pick my team rather than get placed. My team is pretty cool. I now have to go do homework in perpetration for my first group meeting. Later.

Sunday, July 29, 2012

My first night

I moved into my new apartment today. Feel bad that I couldn't lift anything but what can you do. My family and friends helped move me in. I now sit in this room all alone wondering what everyone else is doing.

Wednesday, July 25, 2012

All quiet on the western front

So nothing exciting has happened since my surgery. I'm down to 149 lb so that sucks. My appetite is not good at all. I have some nasty pain on my leg and back. It's been keeping me at home and up at night. It's hard to walk for too long so I just stay home. We do have a plan to get the pain under control but it'll take time. What sucks is that the pain doesn't let me focus on anything. I've been trying to read my homework for the last 3 days and have not been successful. On a good note I think I'm moving into my new apartment this weekend. So now I have to go through my stuff and box what I want to take. This should be fun.

Saturday, July 14, 2012

Homework

Yesterday I went to USC and picked up my homework. So weird to have HW after so long.

Wednesday, July 4, 2012

Tubeless

Yesterday I saw my Dr and had the last tube pulled out of me. For once in over 6 months I don't have a tube stuck in me or a bag hanging off of me. I haven't been able to wear jeans since my treatment started since it was so difficult to hide everything. I'm still adjusting to the new bladder but it doesn't seem that bad so far. I don't know what the next step is. I'll know when I schedule my Dr apt next week.

Sunday, July 1, 2012

Disco disco

Tonight I was invited to a family party. At first I was not feeling well and was a bit uncomfortable. Once the music started I looked over at my girl and I couldn't just let her sit there all night and watch others dance. So I got up, took her hand and off we went for maybe 20 min before I ran out of juice. The rest of the night I had all sorts of muscle pain. You know what though, for a brief moment I got to hold her tight and remembered what it was like dancing with my girl. Worth every pain. Plus she promised to give me a massage when we got home. I'm still waiting. lol

Friday, June 29, 2012

I kicked my nurse out

I have a home care nurse that comes to give me hydration. She couldn't stick me with the needle to save her life. Before she's had to stick me twice before she got it. Today she was going for the third time. I stopped her and said we're done. I called and asked for a new nurse. I've never had this much trouble with a nurse and a needle. Every nurse compliments me on my veins. This one second guessed herself every time she inserted the needle and did it super slow. Then she blamed me for it bruising since I would take the needle out once done. And she has the nerve to say I know you're in a mood and blames me for not letting her try a third time. No thanks.

Wednesday, June 27, 2012

Survivor of Wyatt

I got in touch with my college professor. It had been a while since we had spoke or hung out. We were pretty close since I was heavily involved with a few business clubs in college. Anyway he is taking classes on earned value management and project management which is what I did at Boeing. He needs my help with his homework. We're also discussing writing an article together on the subject. I hope we do this. It'll be a good distraction for me.

Tuesday, June 26, 2012

Road to recovery

Today I saw my Dr. He's pleased that I'm driving and out shopping for an apartment. I was having a lot of pain where my drainage tube was going in. The stitches were ripping out. So he took it out a week early since it wasn't draining much. It already feels better. Other than that I've got one more week with the catheter and then potty training begins. He then downgraded me to Vicodin so I can get off the morphine. Also got a chance to visit my coworkers. I was hoping to go on the transformers ride but not a good idea since I have stitches. Other than that so far so good.

Monday, June 25, 2012

Kevin & Bean

I'm listening to Kevin & Bean for the first time since I started therapy. I miss my life.

Sunday, June 24, 2012

I weigh how much?

I just weighed myself for the first time since surgery. I'm 154 lb. I was fatter in high school. No good.

Thursday, June 21, 2012

Reflecting

I sit here and reflect on my last 6 months. It's not the pain or treatment I think about but the unexpected support I've received from my family. My family is just as messed up as any other. I've done all I can to distance myself from the negativity and in the process have neglected relationships with my just about every cousin, uncle, and aunt. Then all this shit happens and all of a sudden all these people I don't talk to come to support me. What just happened? I've been a dick to you for how long and you're being nice to me? Some people find religion in times like this. I think I found my family.

Saturday, June 16, 2012

Walked out on my own two feet

As most of you know I was discharged from the hospital last Saturday. Sorry for those that didn't know and are now finding out. My Dr had a little chat with me on Friday since I didn't want to leave the hospital. I had way too much pain. No way I was leaving the hospital with that much pain. He encouraged me by telling me that I met my exit criteria two days after surgery. But anyway I'm home now. Pain is ok. At this point I don't have the same pain I've had for the last year and half. Just some surgical pain which gets better daily. The rest is gas pain which no pain medicine will help. That's getting under control. In 2 weeks I will have to start physical therapy to learn potty training. I anticipate mastering that in a month. Dr says 2-3 months. The sooner the better. Freaky thing is how good my surgeon is. My scar is less than 6 inches. That's enough for maybe one hand and not much else. He removed my bladder and prostate and created a new bladder out of my intestine or colon. Don't know which. Then he connected all that to my kidneys and the rest of me. And he took a bone sample for cancer testing and he saved my nerves so I won't have to have physical therapy to learn to rise to the occasion if you know what I mean. Mom says my Dr had a satisfied grin on his face and proud how well everything turned out. My Dr is Persian so I will probably never hear the end of it from dad about Persian doctors. If you've followed my blog you'll know my dad was pushing me to see a Persian Dr. before all this started. Oh, I signed off my old bladder to medical research. My name is not attached so I say go nuts. As long as it helps some other poor bastard trying to learn his new job, prep for school and plan a wedding. lol can you tell I'm bitter. I just cheated death people. That's just nuts. I've become so weak that small amounts of activity wears me out. I'm tired from typing this blog. WTF. This will change.

Tuesday, June 12, 2012

USC class of 2015

Students from my MBA class of 2015 at USC are planning happy hours and I can't go. In time I suppose.

Monday, June 11, 2012

Great success

So I finished surgery. Everything was successful. I'm in my room now which is a much bigger room than prior visits. I'm on pain meds with a button so I can administer it every 10 min.

This is it

I'm on my way to the hospital. I hope everything goes smoothly.

Tuesday, June 5, 2012

All I want

All I want is a week after surgery before I start work where everything has healed and I've got no complications. I just want to lay by the pool with a beer in one hand and reflect on what a shitty year El and I've had so far and think how I can make the most of it before year end.

Can we get started already

These last few weeks after my last chemo have not been fun. I've had nothing but problems starting with my kidney infection. I think it's back so I'm taking meds for that again. Also I stopped my daily morphine pain meds by Dr order in prep for surgery and my pain has returned and it's not happy.
I've had to call my Dr 3 times now and beg for IV Dilaudid pain meds (which I've labeled heroin). Heroin always works on my pain instantly but I need someone to drive me since it's really strong and it knocks me to sleep.

I guess what I'm saying is this week is going really slow and I just want to be done with this already.

Monday, June 4, 2012

Pain med or heroin

Last night I had pain and ended up in the hospital for a shot of Dilaudid pain meds. Turns out this med replaced heroin in hospitals. I wouldn't be surprised if it still has some in it. This stuff numbs my whole body and puts me to sleep. It's the best thing I've ever had for pain. The pill form I have does nothing. Just my luck.

Friday, June 1, 2012

Oh I get it

This is suppose to build my character, make me stronger and all the other bull everyone says. Right?

Thursday, May 31, 2012

I have hair in my nose

And my head, eyebrows, eyelids, and beard. It's starting to grow back. It's a slow process. Maybe I put eshi ugh ("donkey oil" for my non Armenian friends) on it.

Friday, May 25, 2012

Rotten deal

Maybe it's the pessimist in me but I can't help feel like I got a real shitty deal with life. I worked my ass off to get in shape. Worked my ass off to get into USC and find a new job. Aull for nothing. In a blink of an eye I go from knowing all the answers to life to not knowing what my tomorrow brings. I had it all figured out. By August I would have had almost a year worth of experience at Universal. El and I would have our own place and I'd be prepared to get married and start school. Now there's no guarantee I will be healthy enough to attend USC. No guarantee I'll have my job when I go back to work. My wedding is postponed another year. What more can go fucking wrong? I've lost everything to a fucking disease. Thanks a bunch.

Tuesday, May 15, 2012

What now

Well today my doc told me I may go into surgery in a month. A month? Yeah a month. Un mes? Si, un mes. Inside joke. So yeah surgery in a month. Then it's somewhat up to me how fast I recover. Lots of unknowns. A bit scared.

Friday, May 11, 2012

Latest developments

I have a blood cloth. Now I have to stick myself with this every day for the next 6 months. Can I please get a break. If it's not one thing wrong it's another. My life needs a reset button. I must have made a wrong turn somewhere.

Wednesday, May 9, 2012

What a good day

How nice it is not to be in the hospital. I feel great considering I have to be careful not to cut myself. Doctors say I may bleed out. But who cares. It's warm outside and my car speakers have arrived. I can finally do something on my new Jeep on my own. First we install speakers then we test the effects of the wind on my bald head as I drive with the top down.

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

I'm out

I just got released from the hospital. I'm breathing fresh air again. I'm free.

Saturday, May 5, 2012

Thursday, May 3, 2012

Never fails

Just when everything is going well and the end is near I have to get a 101 fever. Now I'm going to get admitted to the hospital again. I hope it's a short stay. I have a very important birthday to attend.

Wednesday, May 2, 2012

Day after

The days after chemo are harsh. I can't seem to get it together today. My entire body hurts.

Monday, April 30, 2012

I'm done with chemo

I finished chemo with flying colors. Dr said my labs looked good. Now I've got a number if appointments lined up for the next two weeks to determine the next step. I hope I'm ready for surgery. Oh and I plan to grow a giant beard to make up for having no hair for the last 4 months. With that said I'd like some eyebrows and eyelashes please.

Sunday, April 29, 2012

mmmmm Beer

I'm having my first beer in probably the last year. Ice cold bottle of Erebuni imported from Armenia. BTW I'm at Rafi kabob waiting patiently for my food. My idea of heaven.

Saturday, April 28, 2012

I think the chemo caught up with me

This week I've been feeling nauseous and running to the bathroom to pray to the porcelain gods. It's not a fun week. Can't wait for this to end. I need to be good for Elina's b-day next weekend.

Wednesday, April 25, 2012

1 more chemo day left

I can't believe I've come so far. I've got one more chemo day left next Monday. Then we cross our fingers and hope I'm ready for surgery.

Sunday, April 22, 2012

3 days of fun

These last 3 days have been a blast. I've been busy hanging out with friends and family. I've noticed I do better when I'm surrounded by family and friends. Yeah I have my pain but overall I've been eating better and been more active. Thanks to everyone I've seen this weekend.

Friday, April 20, 2012

I miss it

The minute I'm able to run, jump and crawl I'm going paintballing. This cancer is interfering with my fun.

Wednesday, April 18, 2012

Monday, April 16, 2012

Thanks but no thanks USC

Today I asked USC if they could make an exception to their policy and defer my MBA until 2013. They said no and offered to make an exception and return my $1500 deposit. Then I can re-apply from scratch next year if I'm well. That's not what I asked for. I guess when you're USC and you have warm bodies lined up to come to your school you don't need a cancer sob story. I told them never mind. I'll come to class sick.

Live your life to the fullest they say

So I told my mom about my coworker passing away and you know what she said. She told me to go enjoy my life and do everything I want to do.

So in that case I'm buying a slightly older Wrangler to enjoy with my fiancé. We're gonna lift it and use it for the beach and camping trips this summer. Then this coming winter I hope to drive to Mammoth with it. I've needed a 4x4 for a long time.

Sunday, April 15, 2012

I died and went to heaven

This weekend I dropped $100 on my oyster appetizer, 8oz fillet, 16oz lobster, glass of wine and Creme Brûlée at Taps. I needed this. It's been too long.

Wednesday, April 11, 2012

Cancer does it again

Today I learned that one of my co-workers from Boeing lost his battle with brain, lung, and stomach cancer. He was 54 and had a 12 year old daughter. From what I've been told he knew it was coming.

As close as this hits to home with me, I can't imagine being in his shoes.

I probably haven't said this but I might have been in his situation if I didn't have my fiancé, my family and my friends to support me and give me the love, attention and energy I need to battle my disease. Thank you for staying by my side.

My Dr said

I ran into my Dr on my way out of the hospital yesterday and the first words out of his mouth were hi, you look good. I've heard this I look good comment before and I don't get it. What part looks good, the bald head? The dark circles around my eyes? My hairless goatee or my eyebrows and eye lashes that are disappearing? I just don't get it. Yeah I feel good but I don't see anything good looking. I'll stop bitching now.

Tuesday, April 10, 2012

Chemo #5

Yesterday ends my 5th chemo session. So far so good. In 2 weeks I start my 6th and final chemo. Then if things go well we go into surgery. I'm scared.

Friday, April 6, 2012

On the road again

Today I drove my car for the first time since my treatment began. I drove to Glendale from OC. I've never felt so free and normal in the last 3 months. It's an awesome feeling.

Monday, April 2, 2012

Residents

Can't seem to get rid of these useless resident doctors. They come and ask me questions that if they spent any time reading my reports they would know the answer. Then they try to find things wrong with me so they can request useless tests that tell us what we already know. They're trying to make a name for themselves so they got their medical book and they're digging for something to do.

Today they wanted to do a chest X-ray to see what's going on with my lungs. Then they wanted more blood work. Not to mention they wanted to take my kidney bandage off and just replace it with another bandage. They wanted to see how the infection is on my right kidney tube. First of all this isn't a paper cut. It's a hole in my body going all the way into my kidney. There's protocol and procedures for replacing these bandages. You need sterile gloves and 3-4 diff cleaning and disinfecting agents every time you replace one. They were going to treat it like a regular bandage. Peel the old one off and stick on the new one. I don't think so.

I gotta thank my fiancé on this one. I was in the restroom and all I hear is my fiancé giving them an earful about how this kind of incompetence landed me in the hospital for 10 days. So when I came out I told them they are not touching me until they talk to my Dr. If my Dr said its Ok then it's ok. If not then no. I told them not to come back until they get their facts straight and they talk to my Dr. So what happens, I call my Dr as soon as they leave and my Dr says no matter what they want to do I'm getting chemo as planned and as written in a report which these idiots haven't read. So really they are wasting their time. Half hour later the useless Dr comes to tell me she talked to my Dr and we're not doing any of the tests. Well duh.

So my chemo started as planned and "knock on wood" everything is ok.

My Dr knows I have a cough and a infection. That's why I'm on antibiotics. These residents don't know enough and don't care. Based on my experience I'm scared of what the future holds. These are next generations doctors.

CT scan results

I got my CT scan results and it shows signs of improvement. We're going to continue chemo today.

Saturday, March 24, 2012

Upcoming progress check

So next week I have to get scanned again to see if any progress was made in the last few weeks. I hope we see a change.

Tuesday, March 20, 2012

Cheating death one day at a time

Yesterday I had one of the easiest chemo days since I started this mess. I saw my Dr and even though I'm not 100%, my test results came back fine. This meant no extra tests or medicine. I slept through a simple chemo drip and came home no problem. I need more days like this. Now I wait to see if the days following chemo will be good to me.

Saturday, March 17, 2012

My 4 walls

I've been sitting in my room for the last 3 days now. Today is day 4. I think I'm noticing a pattern of my crummy days. It seems to be the days following chemo. For example this week I had chemo Monday and Tuesday and felt horrible Wednesday and Thursday. I felt more energized and upbeat on Friday but I still hung out in my room. My Xbox isn't going to play itself after all. Now it's Saturday and my beautiful fiancé is here to take care of me. She made me breakfast which I couldn't eat due to lack of appetite. She also brought me home made lunch which again no appetite. I think those two last words best sum up this week. No appetite.

Wednesday, March 14, 2012

Got my discharge papers

I'm so glad they let me come home from the hospital yesterday. I had no complications to hold me in. They had my papers signed and ready before my meds were done dripping into me. Now that's what I like.

Tuesday, March 13, 2012

2 years

It's been 2 years today that El and I have been seeing each other. I proposed to her a year ago.

Monday, March 12, 2012

Chemo session 4

We're half way done. We start the 4th session of chemo today. Hopefully everything goes as planned and I get out tomorrow.

Thursday, March 8, 2012

So what is the latest?

So the last thing I told you was that I had a camera down my throat. The result on that was negative. This is awesome since now I don't have to do at home antibiotics for weeks.

I do have a small infection though on my kidney. It's been giving me light fevers at night. So I'm getting pill antibiotics. Hope that goes away soon.

Yesterday was fun. I recharged my motorcycle battery again and rode my bicycle down my street a few times. Anything to not sit at home. Even drove my car and eventually my motorcycle down the street too. Just wanted a taste. I haven't driven since early Jan when I started chemo. I did notice it being harder to balance my motorcycle. I've lost too much weight and muscle.

Other than that I'm keeping busy on my Xbox a bit and working on some misc projects on my Mac.

I'm looking forward to Monday and Tuesday. I'll be in the hospital for session 4 of my chemo. We're half way done. I just hope I don't stay longer than Tuesday and that on Monday they start chemo early. I don't want to have to wait until the end of the day to be discharged. I'm traumatized from staying at the hospital too long.

Wednesday, February 29, 2012

Another day of chemo

This morning I start by having a camera shoved down my throat. They wanted to take pics of my heart to make sure I have no infection. Pointless sadistic procedure all because the doctors couldn't make up their minds during my 10 day stay at the hospital last week. I hope I never have to do that again.

Now I wait to get my day chemo. I seriously hope everything goes off without delay or problems. It almost seems that every time I schedule a Dr apt they want to admit me to the hospital. There's always something wrong. I'm sick of it. I've had enough.

Saturday, February 25, 2012

Home at last

I finally got released from the hospital after a miserable 10 day stay. They inserted a PICC in me so I can administer my antibiotics through IV for the next few days.

Thursday, February 23, 2012

Disappointing week at USC hospital

I've never been one to complain. I'm typically patient when it comes to customer service but this week at USC has been disaster.

First we couldn't get the hospital to figure out if either the hospital, Uerology, or Radiology was responsible for fixing my kidney nefrostomy tube. This delay caused my fever, infection and the pain I had on my back. So we complained to everyone at the hospital and had an incident report written.

Then you know about Nurse Beni.

Yesterday I switch rooms and move to the 9th floor for chemo. I get here and the resident Dr tells us we're not starting chemo today. We argue that my Dr said we are. He checks and says there is no request for the chemo for me. My Dr has to write it. Later turns out this guy was suppose to copy my old chemo plan and my Dr would sign off. We get that done and this clown tells us it's a 3 day treatment. We question him and it turns out he's wrong. It's the same 2 day plan. That's the first problem of the day.

I arrived at the hospital at noon. The nurse sets up my antibiotic IV drip but forgets to unlock it so it starts dripping. It's a 4 hr drip. At 4 pm Elina notices the bag hasn't shrunk. Plus the nurse hasn't come to see me in those 4 hrs. The Dr has also disappeared with no chemo in sight. So we complain again and get another incident report written. The nurse blames the mistake on the person that started a new IV for me. Regardless it's still her responsibility.

Then we see something our eyes can't believe. The 4hr antibiotic drip gets started at 4pm ish. Less then 2 hrs go by and El notices the nurse taking it off my IV. El asks and the nurse says its done. Claims that the drip was going extra slow when we had the initial problem with it. Then she uses the single use isolation cover they're obligated to wear and wraps everything in it. She goes to the door were the the trash is, pulls the curtain all the way and we hear lots of noise as she dumps it in the trash. We sit and watch this in shock. Once the nurse leaves El checks the trash and finds the trash and my antibiotic IV bag soaking wet.

We don't get it. You're already busted for delaying my meds and now you're denying me of them. We complain to the Dr and tell him she's not allowed foot in my room ever again.

We'll file another complaint before we leave. Overall this entire week I've had the most disappointing experience since we started coming to USC.

My chemo did get started but due to the delays I'll be done much later today.

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

Chemo round 3

Yesterday they performed a ultrasound on my heart to make sure there was no infection around it since earlier in the week I had tested positive for an infection. Well the test came up negative and all other tests have since come up negative.

Today I am changing rooms and will begin my 2 day chemo treatment. Round 3 here I come.

Now if only someone can come roll my butt upstairs to my new room so I can start. I'm anxious because I think this means I may go home Thursday.

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

Tired

I'm tired of these hospitals. I'm tired of this cancer. I want to go home. I want my life back. I don't want to do this anymore. I wanna tap out.

Monday, February 20, 2012

Work

This may sound weird for some but I miss going to work.

Cancer

Today I discovered that one of my old Boeing coworkers has been diagnosed with brain cancer and is going through radiation treatment. I hope I'm not starting a trend.

Nurse Beni

So it's night time and the nurse shift change happens. My nurse comes and asks me questions she should know if she read my report. She takes my temp and see's I have a fever. She doesn't bring me ice packs or Tylenol. We ask for orange juice and water. The juice comes in these small 4oz cups. She brings us 1. Ummm I wanted to drink juice. Not sample it. Then she puts in new IV bags. After a few one machine starts beeping. We call and it takes her 20 min to come and since I was sitting next to the machine she tells me to push the button. Doesn't say which button. I do and it doesn't work. I tell her to do it herself since I don't wanna mess it up. Who's the nurse anyway? The IV doesn't work. It's blocked. She waited so long that the line got blocked and wouldn't reopen. She has to put in a new IV on my arm. She tells me she can't do it now since she has to distribute meds to others so she goes away for half an hour. She comes back and preps to put in the IV.

Here's something to know. I have 2 IV's on my left arm so they can give me multiple meds at once. This is good because that leaves my right arm to perform daily tasks. She suggests putting the new IV on my right arm. Picture this scene with me in bed, both arms confined to an IV. I tell her to use the left arm. She starts to put in the IV. Now, I have really good veins. Anyone that has stuck a needle in me has complemented on how easy it is to work on me. I look down and I notice she's got the needle in me and she's pushing it in and pulling it out. It's starts to hurt so I complain. Then I just have enough with her and I ask if someone else can do it and comment how no-one has ever had a problem with my veins. She leaves and won't tell me who will come to put in the IV or when.

I wait 15 more min and with El's help I find my old nurse and request that I be switched to her. We talk to the head nurse and a min later it's done. I now have 2 functional IV's in my arm. I also have a swollen hand from my old IV.

Staying in the hospital so long I've learned that some of these nurses have no common sense.

Sunday, February 19, 2012

Armenian Cancer Treatment

This is a collection of Do's and Dont's if you're Armenian and are going through cancer treatment.

1) eat eshi uge in the morning and in the evening.
2) eat kabob tomatoes. Not regular tomato.
3) don't go to a American or any other nationality doctor. They're scared (of what I don't know). Go to a Persian doctor. They're the best.
4) drink spinach juice (don't. You get the worst diarrhea.)
5) all tests and treatments completed on your relatives relatives relatives friends relative applies to your cancer. Ask your Dr why they haven't performed those tests for you.
6) when you get a fever, rub your feet with alcohol to bring the fever down. You can use Grey Goose, Smirnoff, Costco brand or anything you may like.

Saturday, February 18, 2012

Modern Science

With all the money spent on disease and medicine research, the solution for a fever is a ice pack? I've been in this hospital for 5 days with a fever and nobody can figure out what's wrong with me. I feel like they're making a huge ass of me. I don't like it.

This fever needs to go

Yesterday early afternoon I broke through on my temperature and I felt great. Then late at night I get woken for labs and I notice I start shivering out of control again. That usually is not good news. At 5:30 am we check and my temp is 102. I think Thais means I'm spending the night again. This is a bit much. I wanna go home now.

Friday, February 17, 2012

Fever got me stuck

I had a heavy fever yesterday and today. Doctors are keeping me overnight till I get better. I feel ok but the machines tell a diff story.

Thursday, February 16, 2012

Wonderful news

My cancer is shrinking.

105 fever

Today I got my bone and CT scan done. I was really cold through both scans. I had a bunch of blankets but the damage is done. I have a 100+ fever and so they are keeping me at least another night. So now I lay here with ice bags under my arms.

Wednesday, February 15, 2012

Back to the hospital

I should have posted this last night but I wasn't feeling well. I came to the hospital last night (happy valentines day). My kidney bag tube had come out from my right kidney. My right kidney was not draining and it caused a lot of problems. I had a fever, my feet were swollen, and I was in pain. Radiology finally got to checking my tube and it turned out it had come out. They were able to fix it so it's draining again; however they are still keeping me tonight just to keep an eye on me and due to the fever.

I was scheduled to get a CT scan and bone scan done today at Norris. To state the obvious I didn't make it to that appointment so tomorrow morning since I'll already be at hospital they're going to do the bone scan and possibly a CT scan as well if my kidney function is back.

Saturday, February 11, 2012

Donations

Elina and I are forever thankful for how the donations are coming along. So many people have been so generous. Thank you.

This donation site was the idea of a few great friends of ours and we are forever great full.

Friday, February 10, 2012

Rest

I've been getting much needed rest this week. This chemo has got a hold of me and it won't let go. The side affects are harsh. I'm trying to keep busy at home so it distracts me from some of the discomfort I'm having. It doesn't always work.

Monday, February 6, 2012

Chemo day

I'm currently at the hospital for session 2 day 2 of chemo. Doctors say I'm looking better. Any minute now I'll be called to the day hospital. I hope this is a quick process.

Saturday, February 4, 2012

3 wishes

It was brought to my attention that a year ago I had 3 wishes. I wanted to be engaged to El. Check. I wanted a new job. Check. I wanted to be accepted to USC. Check. Now I just need to get better so I can fully enjoy all three.

Thursday, February 2, 2012

Nutrition is key

Today El and I met with Dr Hardy. She specializes in nutrition during chemo. She gave us a bunch of advise and supplement suggestions. It's a mixture of vitamin pills and protein powders. The goal is to increase my protein and calorie intake so I maintain the weight I have.

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

Just lying around

I don't know why but I've been out of it today. I've spent most of the day in bed. I hate days like this. Feels like I've accomplished nothing today. I need to snap out of it.

Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Back at home

I finished up my 2 day chemo for the second set scheduled. Everything was a great success. I go back again next Monday for more chemo at the day hospital. The week after that I hope to get a bone scan done so we can see if I've made any progress. Till then I'm back at home relaxing.

Monday, January 30, 2012

Chemo session 2

Today I checked into the hospital for my second set of chemo. I anticipate being here for one night. I should go home tomorrow. If no other surprises come up.

Friday, January 27, 2012

More hair loss

Thank you

I came home from the hospital to find a package from Elina's USC MBA team... Team ETG. It's was filled with the essentials. Soft blanket and slippers. Calming tea to relax me. Movie tickets and Starbucks coffee card. Most touching was the letters from each person expressing their support and love for Elina and me. Thank you so much Rachel, Jim, Tim, Anty, Vivian, Perry, Kevin, Huy, Holli and little Sora.

Home

I'm home again. It's so nice to be back in my comfortable surroundings. I just ate my double double. Now I need to prep to take a shower. I'll be in heaven soon.

Positive news from USC

This cancer needs to go away. I have bigger and better things to do.

Thursday, January 26, 2012

My strength

Holly back

So we've poked some holes in my back and tapped into my kidneys. This will drain my kidney better and will release the pressure that's been building up. This should also help with pain. Here's a pic of what my back looks like.

Hair loss

Here's the first set of hair loss pics.

Another night

So I'm back in a hospital bed. Man are these uncomfortable. Plus I have a procedure in the morning and can't drink. I'm dying of thirst. Where's my Persian nurse with my pain meds?

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

I am going back in

I came in for a routine Dr. appointment and in return am being admitted to the hospital. My kidney function is not what it needs to be.

Last three days

I got home from the hospital on Sunday evening. I've been in bed resting ever since. Also I have pain on my side that won't quit.

One thing I have noticed in the last 24 hours is that I'm loosing my hair. I need to plan a head shaving party. Richie, Raffi, Nima, Omar you want to come to the party?

I'm in Glendale today for a Dr appointment. Hope it ends quick.



Sunday, January 22, 2012

Free at last

I was released out of the hospital today. So glad. I'm going to my parents house in Brea.

Saturday, January 21, 2012

Taking my machine for a walk

I'll be in the hospital another night. I haven't slept last night and am very tired. They're trying to get my home medication to work for me. In the meantime I'm going to go walk my machine.

One friend, one gift, thousands of memories

Today my friend Nima went beyond my expectation again. I don't think I can ever match his level of commitment in our friendship but I hope one day I come close.

Nima, seeing you is a bigger gift than anything you could ever buy me. Thanks for being my friend.

Friday, January 20, 2012

Date night at Keck Hospital of USC

I woke up excited that I would be going home. Soon after breakfast I have another pain spasm and require my happy pill... AKA Dilaudid! Dr tells me I'll need to spend yet another night at the hospital. They said my temperature is still high and they can't identify the cause. I'll tell you why. I'm hot stuff. But in all reality this is a good thing since I'm still having trouble managing my pain.

So I guess it's Friday night ...date night with my beautiful fiancé.

Heaven in a little tube

Naturally it's 4:30am and I'm in pain again. The nurse is bringing me another shot of heaven in a little tube. Soon I will dream of fluffy bunnies and marshmallow clouds.

The doctor will see you now

Thursday, January 19, 2012

Another night at USC

My stay at the hospital has been extended. The Dr wanted to make sure my fever stayed away for a full day. This is best since it also lets me come up to speed with the higher dosage medicine they prescribed (I think). I guess only time will tell




I have a staph infection now.

My fiancé visiting me on a beautiful Thursday morning in downtown LA.

Another 2 night stay at USCs fine hospital

I had an appointment for a single shot of neulasta. I wasn't feeling well at all prior to my visit. I came in on the 17th to find out I have a fever. I get admitted. Tonight is my second night. In one way this is great because it lets me explain to them my pain and have them adjust my pain medication. So far my fever has gone down so I assume I'll be let out tomorrow.

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

This really hurts.

I don't get any sleep at night. I'm urinating every 5 min. It's keeping me awake all night. At times I force my urination since I have this sensation to go. Big mistake. It causes me to bleed and curl into a ball of pain. Then I find myself screaming at myself and let's just say its not a positive step forward.

Monday, January 16, 2012

Chemo day 2

So it's Monday the 16th. I went in for my chemo day 2. Thought it was gonna be 3 hours or so. Ended up in the hospital for 10 hours. I'm glad I turned some family members and friends away from coming to hang with me. There was no room for everyone. Elina sat at my bed or went outside.

I'm home now. The pain is still there. I see no sleep in sight. I envy you if you're in bed asleep.

Saturday, January 14, 2012

What do we do now?

After my meeting I was admitted to the hospital where I spend 2 nights and went through my first set of chemo. The plan is to have me go through 6 phases of chemo. About 4-5 months worth. My doctors are giving me 3 different types of chemo. The plan and the hope is that aggressive cancer will respond to aggressive chemo. Periodically they will scan my bones again to look for changes. Change is good. If nothing changes then they will change the treatment.

What went wrong?

I had an appointment on Jan 9 with my oncologist and surgeon to discuss the details of the surgery. I completed a bone scan prior to this meeting to help speed things along. It was just routine procedure. The results show that the cancer has spread to my bones. This means no surgery until my bones are 100% cancer free.

So what was the plan?

The plan was simple. Everything we read, everyone we spoke to said bladder cancer has a high success rate. They would remove my bladder and prostate. Use my colon to create a new bladder and hook up my kidney's and the rest of the plumbing.

I have what?

If some of you did not know I've had bladder issues for a while. I started seeing a doctor in late 2010. After a year of going back and forth with the doctors I find out that I have bladder cancer. I was told a couple of days before X-mas when I went to see my Dr to find out the result of my latest biopsy. My Dr. recommends a Dr at USC.

What is this all about?

If you've been directed to this page then that means you somehow know me and have heard about my condition. I decided to create this blog after a friends recommendation since I was getting a bit overwhelmed from all the emails and phone calls. I intend to use this blog to keep you up to date on my bladder cancer and any changes that occur. This is the latest information I have. Please feel free to send comments.