I kicked my nurse out

I have a home care nurse that comes to give me hydration. She couldn't stick me with the needle to save her life. Before she's had to stick me twice before she got it. Today she was going for the third time. I stopped her and said we're done. I called and asked for a new nurse. I've never had this much trouble with a nurse and a needle. Every nurse compliments me on my veins. This one second guessed herself every time she inserted the needle and did it super slow. Then she blamed me for it bruising since I would take the needle out once done. And she has the nerve to say I know you're in a mood and blames me for not letting her try a third time. No thanks.

Survivor of Wyatt

I got in touch with my college professor. It had been a while since we had spoke or hung out. We were pretty close since I was heavily involved with a few business clubs in college. Anyway he is taking classes on earned value management and project management which is what I did at Boeing. He needs my help with his homework. We're also discussing writing an article together on the subject. I hope we do this. It'll be a good distraction for me.

Road to recovery

Today I saw my Dr. He's pleased that I'm driving and out shopping for an apartment. I was having a lot of pain where my drainage tube was going in. The stitches were ripping out. So he took it out a week early since it wasn't draining much. It already feels better. Other than that I've got one more week with the catheter and then potty training begins. He then downgraded me to Vicodin so I can get off the morphine. Also got a chance to visit my coworkers. I was hoping to go on the transformers ride but not a good idea since I have stitches. Other than that so far so good.

Kevin & Bean

I'm listening to Kevin & Bean for the first time since I started therapy. I miss my life.

I weigh how much?

I just weighed myself for the first time since surgery. I'm 154 lb. I was fatter in high school. No good.

Reflecting

I sit here and reflect on my last 6 months. It's not the pain or treatment I think about but the unexpected support I've received from my family. My family is just as messed up as any other. I've done all I can to distance myself from the negativity and in the process have neglected relationships with my just about every cousin, uncle, and aunt. Then all this shit happens and all of a sudden all these people I don't talk to come to support me. What just happened? I've been a dick to you for how long and you're being nice to me? Some people find religion in times like this. I think I found my family.

Walked out on my own two feet

As most of you know I was discharged from the hospital last Saturday. Sorry for those that didn't know and are now finding out. My Dr had a little chat with me on Friday since I didn't want to leave the hospital. I had way too much pain. No way I was leaving the hospital with that much pain. He encouraged me by telling me that I met my exit criteria two days after surgery. But anyway I'm home now. Pain is ok. At this point I don't have the same pain I've had for the last year and half. Just some surgical pain which gets better daily. The rest is gas pain which no pain medicine will help. That's getting under control. In 2 weeks I will have to start physical therapy to learn potty training. I anticipate mastering that in a month. Dr says 2-3 months. The sooner the better. Freaky thing is how good my surgeon is. My scar is less than 6 inches. That's enough for maybe one hand and not much else. He removed my bladder and prostate and created a new bladder out of my intestine or colon. Don't know which. Then he connected all that to my kidneys and the rest of me. And he took a bone sample for cancer testing and he saved my nerves so I won't have to have physical therapy to learn to rise to the occasion if you know what I mean. Mom says my Dr had a satisfied grin on his face and proud how well everything turned out. My Dr is Persian so I will probably never hear the end of it from dad about Persian doctors. If you've followed my blog you'll know my dad was pushing me to see a Persian Dr. before all this started. Oh, I signed off my old bladder to medical research. My name is not attached so I say go nuts. As long as it helps some other poor bastard trying to learn his new job, prep for school and plan a wedding. lol can you tell I'm bitter. I just cheated death people. That's just nuts. I've become so weak that small amounts of activity wears me out. I'm tired from typing this blog. WTF. This will change.

This is how you cure cancer

Hospital food sucks. Thanks god for junk food.

Elvis came to visit me at the hospital

USC class of 2015

Students from my MBA class of 2015 at USC are planning happy hours and I can't go. In time I suppose.

Great success

So I finished surgery. Everything was successful. I'm in my room now which is a much bigger room than prior visits. I'm on pain meds with a button so I can administer it every 10 min.

This is it

I'm on my way to the hospital. I hope everything goes smoothly.

All I want

All I want is a week after surgery before I start work where everything has healed and I've got no complications. I just want to lay by the pool with a beer in one hand and reflect on what a shitty year El and I've had so far and think how I can make the most of it before year end.

Can we get started already

These last few weeks after my last chemo have not been fun. I've had nothing but problems starting with my kidney infection. I think it's back so I'm taking meds for that again. Also I stopped my daily morphine pain meds by Dr order in prep for surgery and my pain has returned and it's not happy.
I've had to call my Dr 3 times now and beg for IV Dilaudid pain meds (which I've labeled heroin). Heroin always works on my pain instantly but I need someone to drive me since it's really strong and it knocks me to sleep.

I guess what I'm saying is this week is going really slow and I just want to be done with this already.

Pain med or heroin

Last night I had pain and ended up in the hospital for a shot of Dilaudid pain meds. Turns out this med replaced heroin in hospitals. I wouldn't be surprised if it still has some in it. This stuff numbs my whole body and puts me to sleep. It's the best thing I've ever had for pain. The pill form I have does nothing. Just my luck.

Oh I get it

This is suppose to build my character, make me stronger and all the other bull everyone says. Right?